City on our Knees by TobyMac
If you gotta start somewhere why not here
If you gotta start sometime why not now
If we gotta start somewhere I say here
If we gotta start sometime I say now
Through the fog there is hope in the distance
From cathedrals to third world missions
Love will fall to the earth like a crashing wave

Tonight’s the night
For the sinners and the saints
Two worlds collide in a beautiful display
It’s all love tonight
When we step across the line
We can sail across the sea
To a city with one king
A city on our knees
A city on our knees
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

If you gotta start somewhere why not here
If you gotta start sometime why not now
If we gotta start somewhere I say here
If we gotta start sometime I say now
Through the fog there is hope in the distance
From cathedrals to third world missions
Love will fall to the earth like a crashing wave

Tonight’s the night
For the sinners and the saints
Two worlds collide in a beautiful display
It’s all love tonight
When we step across the line
We can sail across the sea
To a city with one king
A city on our knees
A city on our knees
Oh-oh-oh

Tonight could last forever
We are one choice from together
Tonight could last forever
Ooh
Tonight could last forever
We are one choice from together
As family
We’re family
Oh Tonight could last forever
We are one choice from together
You and me
Ya, you and me
Tonight’s the night
For the sinners and the saints
Two worlds collide
In a glorious display
Cuz its all love tonight
When we step across the line
We can sail across the sea
To a city with one king
A city on our knees
A city on our knees
Oh oh oh
A city on our knees
A city on our knees
Oh oh oh
If we gotta start somewhere why not here
If we gotta start sometime why not now 

This song is impacting me alot... 

im listening to it on repeat.

Im thinking alot about my career choice... like 

what do i want to be when i grow up....

i found out im:

Realistic - Realistic occupations frequently involve work activities that include practical, hands-on problems and solutions. They often deal with plants, animals, and real-world materials like wood, tools, and machinery. Many of the occupations require working outside, and do not involve a lot of paperwork or working closely with others.

:)

I keep praying God would show me... THIS IS WHAT I WANT YOU TO DO>>> haha but i guess it doesnt work that way. il just keep praying

fall

yo! 

Life is alright... work is ... well work. im trying to make the most out of it but its hard when you get yelled at all the time.... Im starting to like inbound more now where you actually take the calls instead of calling people so there a little nicer cuz they actually initiated the call! but its still telemarketing... 

Im slowly getting a life... ish. I still dont have many friends around here. but oh well. im driving about 30-60 min. to hang out with christian friends. 

:( i feel so alone... im starting to hate living at home... 

I have dreams..... but i learned in church today that God wants us to sell our possessions and give to the poor and follow him. so maybe i just need to give up on my dreams sell what i have and follow him. :( heartbreaking it seems. eventhou i know God has the best plan for me.. better than i could ever imagine but God never says when hes going to give it to us. like job.. God allowed him to be tempted and he hurt and had an anguishing life... but he still believed and i bet his riches were amazing in heaven. but why do we have to wait? why cant we just have a little now.