avoiding the ocean floor by starting over

I have been thinking a lot about my life and this is what I have come up with: 

2008 was a year of growth... and development... 

I messed up... but I am LOVED and FORGIVEN!

Ive started over... and planed 2009 to be a great year! 



MY FUTURE:

I had a conversation with a friend the other day... I was complaining about how i didnt know what i wanted to do for a career.  I was expressing how i wished God would just tell me so I could start working toward my career.  It didnt dawn on me till later that i was being selfish.  I wanted to know so I could start working.  but the truth is.. that God has my life already prepared for me and all i need to do is obey:

"For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them" -Ephesians 2:10

So the truth is that i dont need to worry about my future because God has it already planed out for me.  And maybe God is waiting for the right time to tell me what my future career is and where my calling is.  so this semester I can focus on homework and completing the tasks that determine my grades presently.  I tend to think to far ahead and not notice the present thus missing alot of opportunities to use my gift and witness to people.  I dont read the word every day I dont pray like i should.  I dont even worship God like i used to... 

I want to seek his will for my life... and to live my live in such a way that honors him:

"Make me to know your ways, O Lord; teach me your paths.  Lead me in your truth and teach me, for you are the God of my salvation for you I wait all the day long." -Psalm 25:4-5

so for now I will continue to work on strengthening my relationship with Christ because I trust he has something incredible planed for my future:

"Jesus answered him, 'what i am doing you do not understand now, but afterward you will understand.'" - John 13:7

I will work on being patient and seek to trust the Lord!  I will ask the Lord to place me in situations that test my patience!

"The lord is not slow to fulfill his promise as some count slowness but is patient toward you, not wishing that any should perish, but that all should reach repentance.  But the day of the Lord will come like a thief, and then the heavens will pass away with a roar, and the heavenly bodies will be burned up and dissolved, and the earth and the works that are done on it will be exposed."

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LOVE:

" Love is patient and kind: Love does not envy or boast: it is not arrogant or rude it does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful.  It does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth.  Love bears all things, hopes all things, endures all things." 

-1 Corinthians 13:4-7

"Continue steadfastly in prayer, being watchful in it with thanksgiving" -Colossians 4:2

"PURSUE LOVE, and earnestly DESIRE the spiritual gifts, 

especially that you may prophesy"

- 1 Corinthians 12:29

I will wait... for the right man... to sweep me off my feet

in the cold of summer nights

I yearn to be at great hights

To be interlocked at the hand

with a man that can stand

On his two feet

and lead the meek

to the satisfying taste

so the night is not a waste

I wish i knew such man

who has no pride

for the world lied

when they said control is grand

now take me by the hand

INNER BEAUTY OF A GIRL:

" Do not let your adorning be external-the braiding of hair and the putting on of gold jewelry, or the clothing you wear- but let your adorning be the hidden person of the HEART with the IMPERISHABLE BEAUTY of a GENTLE and QUIET SPIRIT which in God's sight is VERY PRECIOUS."-1 Peter 3:3-4

Im seeking the Lord to teach me how to be patient. I want to be put into situations where I need to be quiet and Gentle... yet i stand up for my beliefs

I pray that God satisys my heart.. and i am drenched in his unconditional love. I dont want to be impatiant i dont want to rush this. I want to be beautiful!

"Not that i am speaking of being in need, for i have learned in whatever situation I am to be content.  I know how to be brought low and I know how to abound.  In any and every circumstance.  I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need.  I can do ALL things through HIM who STRENGTHENS me. -Philippians 4:11-13